Sunday, October 31
all the songs are ringing in my head. well they're taking turns anyway. i am a very fair fanatic, or so i say. just can't get them out of my head. fell asleep reading lit. it's not lit's fault. i was headachy. 'wasn't it good.. wasn't he fine.. isn't it madness, he can't be mine..' but there's something to learn from every song, and this one is pretty useful: no one in your life is with you constantly, no one is completely on your side. we're all human. in the end the person who's supposed to catch you when you fall might call in sick. so try not to fall at all, and save everyone the bother of cleaning up your squished remains at the bottom of the cliff. do i sound very cold and detached? i am trying to lose myself, so that when i find myself the second time round i might be okay with me. i suppose that makes no sense at all. it makes perfect sense to me though, like how running screaming in the rain always seems a good idea at that point of time. i shall go to school tomorrow. and i shall breathe in the air of freedom in a quick gulp before papers start on tues. i know you don't think this is freedom, but i do. i am never truly bound until the day before the paper when i really start hunting out notes - does anyone happen to have her bio file around? i'll need it in week two. :P --waiting [im]patiently for eternity to end, i wonder if i'll ever see things the same way again. i realise we've [kinda] grown huh. but i still don't feel like a sec4 taking her o's in two days. i feel like an idiot little girl yawning like a puppy. but when you look into our eyes.. and compare what you see with what's in the eyes of others who haven't gone through some struggles.. yeah we've learnt something for life. and i'm not just talking about the tiredness. it's the quietly determined and steady look you get from facing the flames head-on. and of course, the glow of anticipation. yay! *flops over and dies* shall find more food.
it must've been love.
5:18 pm
xoxo
